You were there at some of the good times,
I resented you for not always being there
But you were always there when times were bad
You were the only one offering a hand
When the worst brought me to my knees
And when I couldn’t stand up,
You got down on yours,
And promised we’d get back up together
…
“Stay strong”, you said…
Little did you know that
That was the turning point
It was your smile that assured me
That life goes on, that acceptance comes
Even if it takes some time, it comes
But only if you believe in something bigger
You showed me that it was okay to hurt
It was okay to be human every now and then
I found God after years of looking away
Because of you
…
And then, somehow, the monster within me showed up,
And you fought it, you fought it with everything you had
You thought you could tame it, you started digging deep within me,
To find the person I was, the one you knew, only to have
the monster knock you down the deeper you dug
Didn’t you know darling, that when you told me it was okay
To be human,
That most humans are monsters in a beautiful form?
…
Without you by my side,
I learnt what it was to feel
Alone
In the middle of a crowd
Without you holding me tight,
Telling me that
things would turn around,
I saw parts of me falling to the ground
Without you,
I was a ghost.
…
So, when life gave me another chance,
I couldn’t believe it
It was you who breathed the life
Into my ghost again,
Like you did so many times before
And God, if that wasn’t the most refreshing air
To enter my lungs
…
You are one of many in my life, but you are one of those still worth loving
11.